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Saturday, February 07, 2004
and i just kick her in the oooohhhhhhhhh Bay-BeEEEE
Mood: Bored Outta My Mind
Listening To: "Sugar" - System of A Down
Ha oh wow today has been extrememly boring but thats ok ill write about it anyway this was i can waste 2 minutes of Dans life that he can never get back. muahahaha I woke up today, at 11, because i was up till like 2 on the phone listening to shaina breathe and click on her keyboard.. exciting let me tell you. Then i showered and all that fun stuff, just to look pretty for my computer screen, im telling you that thing loves me, it wont even let me leave it for a few minutes.. oh man. Then i ate some of the pizza that i had left from last night and the cheesy bread sssssgoood lemme tell you. Yea then my rents went out and me and my broham had to watch emma and she cried cuz she wanted to go for a walk around the lake, cuz ya know thats the cool thing to do, its like 30degrees and pitch black outside, but of course she wants to go for a walk.. needless to say she didnt go for that walk.. im a lazy horrible sister, sue me. Then i came and talked to Bruce for awhile and hes all sick and throwing up :( poor baby.. and yea he called me and we talked for a bit about bumfights and orange juice.. all the essentials of life. it was actually a nice conversation, ha hes such a funny kid.. pulling teeth out of a guys mouth isnt funny its kinda gross but whatev i let him have his momemt. then after i got off the phone with him i entertained myself with sonic the hedgehog video games and super mario sunshine, because i play all the *coolest* video games there are.. but i still am horrible at the missions in super mario sunshine, and yes bruce, they are missions.. you wouldnt know cuz youre too cool for mario sunshine. your loss. after that i read my nice magazine about a girl who got her arm bit off by a shark, and im watching how to lose a guy in 10 days again.. why you ask? because im obsessed with it, and i love matthew mcconaughey.. ooh baby. i must get going tho, because i dont have anything else to bore you with. ill love you, forever <3
<33 n to da i-c Ohhh L to da E
im addicted to you.. dont you know that youre toxiC muahaha britney spears for you bitches
Yeah, you still kiss me, but it's just on the cheek
Yeah, you still kiss me, but it's just on the cheek
Yeah, you still kiss me sometimes, but it's just on the cheek
You pull away so easily
And I still call you, but I get your machine
And I still call you, but I get your machine
And if I'm lucky I guess, I get your roommate answering
But you're at the bar, or at Gene's
And we go to dinner, but you won't hold my hand
We sit at the same table, but we don't play with our feet
Yeah, we still go to dinner sometimes, but we don't sneak a kiss
When the waitress turns around
And we still watch movies, but we don't share the couch
And we still rent movies, but we don't share the couch
Yeah, we still watch movies sometimes, but you don't lay in my lap
The plot is slow, take a nap
And you even stay over, but now we stay in our clothes
Yeah, you'll even sleep over, but now we stay in our clothes
Yeah, you even sleep over sometimes, but we stay in our clothes
I'm only there so that you're not alone
And you say that I hurt you, in a voice like a prayer
Yeah, you say that I've hurt you, and your voice is like a prayer
Yeah, well maybe I hurt you sometimes, but let's contrast and compare
Lift up your shirt, the wound isn't there
I guess that your truth, is just the ghost of your lies
I guess your kind of truth, is just the ghost of your lies
Yeah, your kind of truth, darling, is just the ghost of your lies
I see through them all the time
So I'm pouring some whiskey, I'm gonna get drunk
Yeah, I'm pouring myself some whiskey, I'm going to get really fucking drunk
I'm pouring some whiskey right now, I'm going to get so, so drunk
That I pass out, forget your face, by the time I wake up.
*bright eyes*
ha look its your favorite song.. hehe.. i miss you..
Posted at 09:35 pm by nicoLe
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Friday, February 06, 2004
take a loook around, you could have anyone
Mood: Sad.. what a suprise
Listening To: "Saddest Girl Song" - The Starting Line
Sometimes i truly believe that this song is like my anthem of some sort.. i dunno.
Um today wasnt so bad actually.. it rained tho and the rain always makes me sad, but yea i think i did well. I didnt even cry until just before, but it wasnt hysterical.. just a few tears. I passed my chem midterm with a 65, but i passed.. i like cried while taking that stupid test, it was on a bad bad day :( but yea i passed, all that matters. Shaina and Matt came over tonight, they were gunna cheer me up and they did a bit. Shaina can always make me laugh tho because she knows what will get me to smile, cuz shes the bestest friend there is.. We got dominos to and matt had to order it like 5 times cuz they took the order.. put him on hold.. then asked about the order, took the phone number and address.. then put him on hold again.. and came back and asked if he was being help, and he told them he had ordered.. but yea the guy didnt have it. it was 15 minutes on the phone with them just trying to get pizza. plus then it took over an hour to get here, what fucktards. but yea i ate, finally ate something. a nice slice of pizza and like 2 dominos dots.. good stuff. we watched bum fights and matt feel asleep on shaina it was so cute. oh wow how i miss having that with my little lovemuffin.. who really isnt mine anymore :( oh well. maybe one day he'll be falling asleep in my arms again and snoring... who knows? you can hope right.. believe in miracles.. eh i dunno. i think im just gunna go cuz im making myself sad again, and i just dont want to be anymore. goodnight all. ilu </3
<33 nicole
Bound to say something, eyes closed,
It's cold, and I'm home
I feel like nothing again,
Pretending not to care, but I care,
And I care, don't say another word
Our Our time was worthless, but I tried
We started over and over again, as we let go
Held each other, held hands,
Held standards and grudges
That's when I let you know,
I guess that goes to show
Just what I've been going through,
More nights of hugging my pillow, oh
Replaying memories
Sing this song for me;
Tell me how you'll never leave my side
I'll meet you at 7,
I miss you already, goodbye to you,
The last goodbye I'll ever say to you
Our time was worthless, but I tried
We started over and over again, as we let go
Held each other, held hands,
held standards and grudges
That's when I let you know,
I guess that goes to show
Sing this song for me;
tell me how you'll never leave my side
I'll meet you at 7,
I miss you already, goodbye to you,
The last goodbye I'll ever say to you
And I tried so hard,
And I've done my part,
And not to mention most to all of yours
Try and feel,
Try and listen,
Try and think of what you're missing,
Try to look into my eyes.
TRY
Goodbye
Sing this song for me;
Tell me how you'll never leave my side
I'll meet you at 7,
I miss you already, goodbye to you.
The last goodbye I'll ever say to you.
You'll never leave my side.
Posted at 11:18 pm by nicoLe
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Thursday, February 05, 2004
youll always be my konstantine
Mood: Sad
Listening To: "Konstantine" - Something Corporate
Oh wow. Im just warning everyone that his whole entry thing, is just gunna be me rambling on about just stuff i need to let off my chest and everything.. it might be long, but whatever, probably not interesting either.
Everyday I wake up and go "nicole todays gunna be a good day", every single day and they start out that way.. but then by the time i get home im crying my eyes out again.. and i mean like hysterically crying. and normally when id be really upset like this, i would go to bruce and hed sit and listen to me cry and hug me and wipe away my tears. now its the total opposite because hes the reason for these tears. i miss him so fucking much, and i look at him and hes out and doing everything he wanted and is getting over this.. and here i am still crying over him. i mean i thought that this would be harder for him, when we would have talks during our relationship hed always say that he wouldnt know what to do without me, and its like here it is and im doing like i said i would that id be lost and be crying and hes the total opposite of how he said hed be. i mean i could be wrong, and he could be doing an amazing job hiding his saddness and trying to make it seem like he doesnt miss me.. but i dont know. i just feel so alone, and as pathetic as it sounds.. i need that reassurance that he cares and still loves me, as well as my other friends. i mean i never really knew how much i needed that self assurance from people.. i miss being someones everything.. well let me rephrase that, i miss being his everything, the first thing hed think about when he wakes up. i miss waking up to find little messages from him about how he loves me and to have a great day and that he cant wait to see me.. those are the things i miss. or the little emails hed send from college when hed get free time. i just thought we were so perfect for each other, and we made each others lives.. and hed always tell me that, even after we broke up that were made for each other cuz we have that "connection" which is why this is killing me so much, cuz i only have feelings for him, and the thought of other guys right now.. i cant do it. i dont think i could ever do it.. cuz once you find your soul mate, its hard to just be like "ok moving on" cuz youve already found your prefect match, the most amazing partner life could offer you.. and thats how i feel now. age is just a number, age doesnt have anyting to do with love, i mean theres no set age to how old you need to be to know what real love is, and you dont have to of have 20 million partners to know whats real and what isnt. thats something youre heart tells you. and once youre heart makes its decision, theres no going back, and once your heart gives itself away, you cant get it back. to me real love, is when you spend the whole day just thinking of the perfect thing to say to that someone just to see them smile. or when you kiss you heart skips a few beats and you get butterflies like its the first kiss, even tho youve had over a year filled with them. its when he knows your favorite spot to be kissed and where youre most ticklish and out of nowhere would attack you and then kiss you all over and leave you laughing and then you just look at each other and theres just that look. or when you can go out and he knows exactly how you like your food and at what places youd get what. its when he knows how to play your favorite songs even tho he cant stand the bands that sing them. or when he makes movies with pictures of me and us with "i wanna grow old with you" playing in the backround. and at night when he can hold you and cuddle with you till you fall asleep and you can listen to his little snores.. or when the two of you try to fit yourselves on a couch to sleep for the night and will suffer and be squished because you wanna fall asleep in each others arm rather then be alone and comfortable. its when you can be together almost every day and still not get enough of each other, and as soon as he leaves youd start counting down till the next moment youd be together. love is when he can look in your eyes, or listen to the sound of your voice and know if and what is wrong. love is when you know every little thing about each other, and still love each other to death. its when youd give up your own life for theres.. love is just so many things, its undefinable.. but when you find that perfect someone, like i did.. you just gotta wait and let fate take its course and hope they realize stuff. its like i found all this love in one person and even after a year my love for him kept getting stronger and deeper.. and more mature kind of love, not just a "youre so hot omg i love you so much" more of a "youre amazing.. just the things you do, and i love you for all of that and for treating me how you do" type thing. like i love you for you basically.
bruce if you see this, i know that you love me so please dont be "nicole i told you that i loved you, why dont you believe me". because im aware of the fact. i just miss you, and im sorry for this..
<33 nicole
this is because i can spell konfusion with a k
and i like it
it's to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it
it's to jimmy eat world and those nights in my car
when the first star you see may not be a star
I'm not your star
isn't that what you said
what you thought this song meant
and if this is what it takes
just to lie in my mistakes
and live with what i did to you
and all the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock
it's 11:11
and now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
you'll always be my konstantine
konstantine, they'll never hurt you like i do
no they'll never hurt you like i do
no, no, no no no no no no
this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the pretty things she did
hey you know
you keep me up in bed
this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things i did
hey - maybe - baby
you could keep me up in bed
my Konstantine
spin around me like a dream we played out on this movie screen
and i said, did you know i missed you?
oh god i miss you
and then you bring me home
and we'll go to sleep, but this time, not alone, no no
and you'll kiss me in your living room
i know - you'll miss me in your living room
cuz these nights i think maybe that i'll miss you in my living room
we don't have much room
i said does anybody need that room?
because we all need a little more room
to live
my Konstantine
Posted at 09:14 pm by nicoLe
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Wednesday, February 04, 2004
Mood: Bored
Listening To: "Blame Me" - Adema
Gah. I had this whole nice entry written out and its gone. what the fuck. ill try to remember what i had wrote.
Well last night I hung out with Bruce. It was going really really good, just like old times, things were actually going to smoothly for it to of stayed the way it was. We went to sunrise mall, then to go get food.. buy a couple of cds then to barnes and nobles. right there is when things kinda went wrong. We were standing by the magazines and i gave him a hug.. and then instead of letting go, we both didnt, and we should of. cuz he started to kiss my forehead and we just kinda held each other.. and yea things only would get worse. So we leave barnes and nobles and get in his car and he was rubbing my neck and we were sitting there in the parking lot and then like rubbing noses and then kissed.. and then kinda made out for 5-10 minutes.. which at the time was a good idea, it felt right, and i had never wanted to kiss him so badly.. but once it was over.. the reality of how weird things just got, and how complicated and awkward theyd just become hit us both. so we decided it would be a good idea to take me home cuz i had to be home around then anyway. so we get to my house and are parked outside and started arguing and going back and forth at each other and spent a good hour and a half just making everything worse and shit. so i left the car and went inside and broke down, because the last thing i wanted was what had just happened. it sucked. so anyway i laid in bed and wanted to die, and bruce imed me and i went back to talk to him and i dont know if things got worse or better..
This morning when i woke up for school, i just couldnt do it, i didnt wanna be there because todays the 4th, it would of been 13 months and i wasnt in the right mind set. i hate horrible reminders like today. so i was laying in bed and bruce imed me again, and i went back to talk to him and we fought some more. weve never in this past year fought like we have these past few days. it really upsets me. so at the end of the lovely fight, it wasnt so bad. we've both stated how we feel, and we still love each other, thats not gunna chance, we still have that trust and respect for one another and will always be there no matter what. we both hope, and would love for us to eventually down the road get back together, but we dont know if that will happen because only time will tell. right now were working on our friendship because he was the best friend that i ever had, and i know he feels the same way about me. so now its just our time to be ourselves and not have to be commited and see where life takes us. ill always love you bruce, dont you forget.
good bye all
<33 nicole
Posted at 05:59 pm by nicoLe
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Monday, February 02, 2004
theres nothing worse then losing you :(
Mood: Sad
Listening To: "All Good Things" - Count The Stars
Hmm.. I dont know what to write. I figured i'd write something tho. Not to much has happened.. i still havent eaten, and its upsetting me, its almost been 4 days :( i tried to eat nachos at lunch, i had maybe 5, and they were gross and food makes me want to throw up.. its not good, at all. My life just isnt the same, nothing seems to wanna get better, and i feel like im walking around half dead. I painted a nice smile on my face tho today, cuz i didnt want people asking me about what happened and me trying to explain to them risking the chance of crying. some people knew tho and asked me how i was and stuff, and im not saying its bad cuz i felt good that people cared about me, but i just couldnt talk about it because i still miss him so much, and i dont want to think its over. so after the longest school day of my life i finally came home, and back to the comfort of my room. i talked to bruce for awhile, and i dont even know where we stand right now, especially after the talk we had last night and everything. it wasnt a bad talk at all, it was a really nice talk actually.. and it just reconfirmed some things.. and some of the stuff he was telling me was just really really sweet, and i needed to hear that, and it made last night the first night i didnt cry myself to sleep since thursday. its nice hearing the "i love you" from him again, i must say.. it still makes me smile :) i cant even explain some things, so im not even going to try. bruce, my little lovemuffin.. no matter what we'll always love each other, more then anything in this world whether were together or apart.. nothing can change that. if you ever need anything, you know where im at. i love you..
<33 nicoLe
make a list top ten regrets
most foolish things said
this is one time i let you go
a story im sure you and i both know feelings wont let go
im having trouble spitting out whats going threw my head
how i feel today
the same as yesterday
i wonder anniversary meant everything
i cant stand to see our feelings fade away
say hello now awkward pause and on your way to leaving me
you were the best thing i ever had
and i want that back
you were the best thing i ever ever had, i ever had
since were one good terms, thanks for everything
another letter saved the one you wrote to me
asking if i go with you on Horsham day
its almost time to leave our anniversary
keep in mind its picture time my smiling wasnt staged but anyway
you were the best thing i ever had
and i want that back
you were the best thing i ever ever had, i ever had
since were one good terms, thanks for for all the memories thanks for everything
you were the best thing i ever had
and i want it back
you were the best thing i ever had
and i want it back once again
oh man do i miss you :(
Posted at 07:53 pm by nicoLe
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Saturday, January 31, 2004
id give up forever to touch you
Mood: Devasted.. Hysterical.. I couldnt put into words how i feel :(
Listening To: "Iris" - Goo Goo Dolls
Where to begin? Thursday started off really good, just like every other day this week.. but that night out of nowhere, my whole world came crashing down before my eyes.. and all i could do is sit back and watch it fall apart, piece by piece. I spent most of that night on the phone with Bruce, and cried, and listened to him cry, then i cried some more. i actually havent stopped crying since thursday night, and thats the sad truth.
So yesterday me and bruce, decided we'd try and hang out cuz we wanted to see each other, and we went out with shaina and matt.. i never felt so lost then i did then. at sports plus i just wanted bruce to come up behind me and put his arms around me, like he always does and part of me told me he was going to do that, but the reality of it, he wasnt gunna do it. i never wanted to be held so badly as i did last night and to hear "awww pook i love you"and see his happy face, but whenever i could look at him and make eye contact, all i saw were eyes filled with tears that told me he was just as lost as i was. for some reason i thought things would get better, that me and him would get better, that we'd be back together, that what happened thursday out of nowhere was a big mistake and he realized it.. but apparently not. i dont even know anything anymore, i dont even know how i feel. ive never in my life experianced pain and heartache like i have now. its not so much as physical but emotional. everywhere i look theres pictures of us or notes hes wrote me just little simple reminders of the past 13 months almost. and it breaks my heart to know that i might not get another chance with him. he tells me that its not over forever, just that he needs some time to figure out his life right now, but in the process of him figuring out his.. hes made me realize i dont even have a life anymore, i dont have anything left. my lifes come down to laying in my bed crying until i pass out. smiling and laughter are two words i couldnt even express, they wont be happening to me anytime soon.
As a result, I want to thank you Bruce. I dont hate you and im not mad at you, so please stop thinking that i am. Please stop apologizing also, i know what you did and why you did it, and i accept that, well im trying to. I understand how fucking hard that must of been, and i respect you for having the guts to do it and finally do things for yourself for once. I want to let you know that you have changed my life for the better, and have showed me how great things can be, and how amazing love can be if you find the right person. Everything you have done, has bettered my life in somehow, and has made me a stronger person. You taught me how to be myself, and live life day by day and not care what anyone has to say about anything. You opened my eyes to things that i couldnt even comphrend before you came along. I dont think my life was ever as happy and filled with so much laughter then when you were in it. You really dont understand every little joke or comment or wise ass remark you made, i hold them all close to my heart and it helps at night when i feel like the worlds over, i think of how you helped me. The things we shared between us, and the closeness we had, I wont ever forget them, and how could I? Your someone i wont ever forget about, and someone who will cross my mind every single day. And youre not gone, youre still here, in fact im talking to you right now as we speak. Youre my best friend, forever. And eventually if youre more then that again, im more then willing to accept that. I know you would be to, because I know you dont want to be away from me forever from what youve told me. Maybe we both need this time to figure ourselves out, maybe when we do we'll both appreciate everything we had with each other, and maybe like that saying "you dont know what you have until its gone", maybe thats what going to happen here, i really dont know tho. I do know that if its meant to be, then our relationship will come back. Good things always come to those who wait, and theres no reason to try and rush you or make you feel bad for doing what you did. If me and you are truly meant to be, there will be another time, and i honestly believe that there will be.. just think about some of the conversations weve had or times weve been together and that connection we had.. i mean you know that its there just as much as i do. you cant push away feelings that are there, and trying to only makes them worse. We'll make it through this Bruce, and Im sure down the road come out stronger then we have ever been. You still have my heart, and I would love for you to keep it. Dont forget about me, cuz i wont forget about you. And maybe this friend thing wont be so bad, only time will tell. But always remember that I love you, I'll always love you, theres nothing that could change that. Youre my best friend, and i thank you for still talking to me and trying to work this out and remain best friends. Theres nothing I would change, things happen for a reason.. i guess we just have to wait and find out what the reason is..
ill always love you.
Posted at 05:34 pm by nicoLe
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Wednesday, January 28, 2004
i do my buisness to your picture ;)
Mood: Weirddddd but in a good way :)
Listening To: "Hey Driver" - Lucky Boys Confusion
Snowwwwday :) sssgood, as some might say. ha so i didnt have to take the chem midterm which means that i have another chance to study for it, and i really should, so i actually might study. ha yea thats right nicoles gunna study ;) Me and shananabana spent most of the day on the phone planning out the lovely movie about my toenails and a chinese lady, played by, a chinese lady. haha i guess youd have to of been there. hahaha i dont even know but reflecting upon it, no wonder no one wants to be friends with me and shaina, were so fucking strange.... but i love my shaina :) then i actually did my toenails and nails and eyebrows, well attempted.. and then i called bruce <33 [see youre in this one :)] hes so cute. even if he does like to make fun of it. muahaha its ok cuz he has manboobs. hahaha just messing with you!!! you really dont tho. i love your boob area, its nice. yea oh wow i dont know where that was going.. ill listen to lfo i dont mind. i remember when bruce liked them and would always be listening to their one song. his favorite line, yea i still remember. those were the days let me tell you. hm im supposed to hit shaina up in a few.. i think im going to STUDYYYYYY . yeaaaaa chemistry :) holy shit i want ice creammm and why dont we have any good kind.. like good shit.. im talking fudgee wudgee good with whip cream :( oh the tradgicness of my lazy family. kills me i tell you. what was even the point of this entry its a whole lotta rambling goodness. ok im REALLY gunna go now. BrUcE yea i love you, so very much. and its ok ill love you more then you love me, i dont mind. its also ok that youre the best and always will be. and its ok that youre stuck with me forever and ever, and everyone else can be jealous cuz they dont have an amazing boyfriend like you.. its all ok. its me and you for life kiddo ;) ha no one could ever change that no matter how hard they try. but in all honesty i dont know what id do without ya, i love you with all my heart. forever
best quote EVER:
People who stalk guys/girls with significant others particularly piss me off. What the fuck is wrong with these people? Don't you have better thigns to do in life than be emotionally attached to somebody who hates your guts? Do something with your life, find a hobby. You know? Jeez. You know how many videogames out there that you could be playing? At the very least shoot yourself. Get yourself out of society, nobody wants to deal with a stalker. Shut your mouth, choke on your food, and die.
everytime i see that i want to piss myself. its so.. sooo. truthful and funny and it just kills me. good fucking shit.
ha im in the best mood and i just dont understand. its nice i tell you. im sitting here laughing at myself, because todays been a funny day.
Posted at 08:41 pm by nicoLe
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Tuesday, January 27, 2004
we wont stand for hazy eyes anymore
Mood: Joyful.. you know it
Listening To: "You Know How I Do" - Taking Back Sunday
Well i got my hair cut, and i dont think i like it.. its so short. and yea i just dont know. bruce came and got me and we went to the place shaina goes cuz my place was booked till guam. and yea we were there for quite a bit. sorry babycakes :) then we went to get bruces hair done which took like 10 minutes. ha and then we ran to target got some hair dye and dyed his hair. he looks so cute. him and his sweater and everything.. hes so emo. haha. i think it looks really good tho, he doesnt like it.. but he should.
hopefully it will snow so that schools cancelled and i get out of that fucking chemistry midterm. it sucks so much ass, let me tell you. well goodbye everyone. i love you soo much baby, dont you forget that ;)
<33 nicole
Posted at 09:32 pm by nicoLe
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Monday, January 26, 2004
did you ever see that one person?
Mood: Sad.. im in so much pain :(
Listening To: "The Good Fight" - Dashboard Confessional
Ha woo i shouldnt even of went to take the math midterm today, i failed so fucking bad. oh well i dont care, math sucks. school sucks, but at least i get a nice day off tomorrow.
Speaking of tomorrow i think i might get my hair cut, i just dont know, i havent decided, my mom wants me to, and i really dont wanna but my hair is just so dead.. so we might get it cut and then take out the black and go back to my natural color. we shall see. yup and then Im going out with bruce and were gunna get his hair cut and color it and everything, gunna be fun. hes so adorable, i must say. he always knows how to make me smile :) i truly love him with all my heart. and its so weird, like next week will be mine and bruces 13th month anniversary.. freaky stuff i tell you. i wouldnt change a thing tho, cuz everything thats happened has happened for a reason and has only made us closer and made us love each other more then anythign else in this world.
im going to get going. goodnight all <3 i love you so much bruce, dont you forget that.
<33 nicole
Posted at 10:41 pm by nicoLe
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does he cry through broken sentences like, "i love you far too much"
Mood: Sleepy :)
Listening To: "The Calendar Hung Itself" - Bright Eyes
Oh wow. Yesterday Shaina came over, we did our mr.roboto dance and had ourselves some good times. mooo thats all i have to say to you shaina. mooo. then she left and it wasnt long before we got on the phone and sang and passed the long boring night. ha i felt like such shit i was all sickly and drugged up on nyquil good shit.
Today i went with emma to get her ears pierced, shes so excited over it. cute stuff, she cant wait to show bruce. then i came home cleaned up her room, made some money then went out with bruce <33. hes such an amazing person let me tell you. im gunna makeover his hair. hahha. its gunna be good stuff, fun times. apparently theres no haircutting places open at 6 on sunday night. its ok tho cuz they can go die. i might cut my hair because its so dead its horrible. i just wanna get rid of every color thats in my hair right now and go back to my natural color, and i plan on doing that. no more dying and shit, just back to my nice hair, so i think i may have to cut it :( i really dont wanna tho.. ill have to talk to the mamason about that tomorrow.
i must get going to bed tho, i have the lovely math midterm tomorrow :( im gunna do so horrible, its not fair. i hate math. goodbye all you fucktards. hehe i love you bruce, sooo very much :)
 ah so gorgeous. i cant take him and his beautiful music .. soo good. and yes bruce and shaina, his music is good no matter what you two fucktards say :) ha love you guys <3
Posted at 12:39 am by nicoLe
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We can live like Jack and Sally if we want...
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